For a Friend

Let me explain my pathetic situation.

First of all, I have friends. But they have their own intimately close group of friends. I'm just an intruder.

I had a friend, but she turned out to be something of the exact opposite--a backstabbing, lying, two-faced, ....

I had an acquaintance, who always treated me like I am lower than dirt, but I still tried to treat well. I tried to be cordial with her as much as possible.

What hurts the most...

is the fact that the dearest friend I have, someone who I really love and care about, has been forced with an ultimatum (and a stupid one at that)--CHOOSE: ME or them. Them, the lying, two-faced, backstabbing, petty, shallow, disgusting, filthy, .... The bane of my existence.

The catch is, I just had to be giving because she's my bestest, best friend. And for a friend like her, I'd do anything. I had to leave her--them. Because if I don't, they'd let her chose.

I guess, I don't want to know which she chooses too. Me, or them.

So I left.

I left her, because I love her. I don't want her to feel like she has to chose between me or them. I didn't want to hear them tell me to go away too.

It's so funny how much you can trust a person and even consider them as a friend and find out the person's been sh**ting you all along. Makes you jaded and bitter right? Thing is, I'm not. I'm still hoping. I still believe that there will be friends for me out there--other friends.

If you really love someone, let him/her go, right? They say, it it really was meant to be, he/she will come back.

We'll see.